In order to get ahead and do things you never thought possible you have to do the work to uncover what the underlying root cause it. What hurt from your childhood are you still carrying with you?
Yes it is true that you are the only one that can fix this hurt but you don’t have to do it alone. The first step is deciding to get help then raise your hand and find the right resource to help you.
When the student is ready the teacher will appear, I have had great success with therapists, coaches, training courses, books, podcasts, Youtube, TedTalks….. The help is there when you are ready….don’t let that stuff hold you back.