At the age of two my brother slammed a swing into my face because he “hated me being in this world so much”, his words not mine, for some reason, he used to tell me this story all the time when we were growing up. His words “BK life was so great!” BK = Kalani. I have a bump on my lip from it that reminds me of those words every day. For the last 42 years I have suffered from self-loathing, feeling unworthy, and never being good enough.
In January 2021, I decided to end that. I decided that I HAVE to fix this part of me. I will not accidentally pass this mindset onto my children. I decided on January 22, 2021 to pick up the sledgehammer and start breaking down the walls that I have built up. I am breaking them down brick by brick. I have been on a mission to free myself from the thoughts that no longer serve me….funny thing – to end so much suffering … all it took was just to DECIDE to take a different path and off I went……. enjoy the journey.
Disclaimer: A quick technical note – the words you will see on all of the quotes are not solely my words but rather adaptations of quotes and sayings I have seen or heard and collected along the way. As part of this process, some of them were aspirational for that day and some were meant as reinforcement for the day. For each post and photo, I was mentally and physically connecting with the words that I put together with the photo. All photos were taken on my cell phone on location in South Lake Tahoe, Maui, New York City, and California. I tried to notate to give credit to the person who said the words originally and will be updating this library overtime to make sure I have properly given credit where credit is due. Please forgive me for not having everything properly notated at the time of this writing – do not let that distract you from the journey. I am incredibly grateful to all of the mentors and great thought leaders out there that have inspired me. Enjoy the day!